Great Ideas

I've had tons of great ideas since i was little. I write out my ideas, hoping someday I would end up doing one. My ideas kept piling up but I realize that no matter how many ideas i write down, if i am not motivated to do anything about them, what is the point of it all? I'm sure some people might call me negative but, is it really so good to be an optimistic person? hoping for the best and just waiting there like a fucking retard until you come into a realization that the best will never come.

Friends

Before, I thought friendship was sacred. I would do anything for a friend. I would be loyal, and honest. I would be nice and be as helpful as I can. But friendship right now feels like a bunch of bullshit. "Facebook friends... I have 3000 friends, but I probably only close to 2". I guess I am out of money. No silver nor gold. Its like every night I try to fish out a friend to talk to, but everyone is avoiding me. I guess its just me. I worry about them but if they ignore me I cannot do anything to help them. Maybe its better this way. To be alone